4/1/08 It's enamour again!!!
7:48 PM
Enamour again?!Ohmygod I think I re-liked the guy I liked before. It's just so strange, but today I felt the connection again! :D This connection is merely pure happiness, something that rarely happens to me (Perhaps him, too?). Hah Hah Hah, I sound so cheesy.
It only happens once in a while okay.
Gah!!! M. insides are like super high, and my throat is so tingly like I'm going to
SCREAM anytime! But I practise self-control. So I seem perfectly fine in school today. Hope I can stand next to him every other day!
P.S. Short sentences demonstrate self-control when blogging. (;
But other than this, there's nothing else that happened today that is somewhat rather interesting. &&, I think I like
choir more than my
class now. *Redefine:
I don't like my class. Ugh, I have no friends there, no fun there, no interest in there.
I miss 2L!!! That's all that I can say. So what do I do there? I keep reminding myself that that is the place I'm supposed to learn new things, to study. Therefore I pay attention so much so that I daydream.
Yucks it's so scary that the person in front of me has a ridiculous G.P.A of
3.8, and that the person behind me can seem to remember whatever she'd learnt last year. It's more scary to know that probably a weirdo is scanning me anytime and is threatening him or herself not to ever talk to me because I may be some Toot person. It's a thousand times more scary to handle things alone, like for nervous things like self-intros and all that, but I don't blame Hanni, because things would still be the same even with her or not.
But I will never have depression or some zi bi zhen because I won't give up trying to deal things by myself even things so horrifying like a new class. &&, I will end up more excited for choir and maybe I will even
think I had fun in it.
I have to say out all this, even if friends don't think it's that bad, but I stubbornly believe that that's because they don't understand. (Please don't come telling me you do). That was the best pun I can come up with these days, yes, I'm really sucking in sense of humour recently. (That was for anybody who kind of know me, particularly 2L'ers.)
Sorry, but that ain't flaming, but I didn't expect myself to type so much about my class after dreaming about me and my new
craze/
obssession/affection. (That was an overstatement, however.)
Well, um, that whole chunk really did sound heated, huh. Sorry, but I'm still all good. Prove? Here's how.
:DD
