A better friend, or a better person.
9:14 PM
A few tiny little happy things that happened today.
1) I managed to skip recess, resist temptation.
2) I sang well (when Ms Tham was here), at least that's what I thought. I did "Vir-go" pretty well!
3) I bought
Breaking Dawn! Some said it was fairly predictable, surprised Stephenie Meyer was even able to cough out such rubbish. I'll have to see for myself, but since she already wrote
The Host, I guess it wouldn't be as bad.
4) I bought Hello Kitty bag, because I thought why not, since I'm already at Vivo. And I wanted it so badly.
5) I finally had the chance to conduct the choir, or at least in sections (Alto and Bass), and teach them myself. :D I wondered if I should be grateful or angry.
6) I understood Trigonometry fully, w/o leaving out little pieces here and there.
Then, like "All good things come to an end", some bad things:
1) Lee-Teo only called on me when I was sitting very unglamorously, body totally collapsed on the chair, eyes half open, yawning with my mouth so huge it can fit a fist.
2) I was dreading choir the whole day, when it actually wasn't as bad as last Friday's.
3) I skipped recess. And who suffered? My stomach.
4) Choir sounded bleah, even through Ms Tham's ears.
5) Choir and the comm got scolded by Zheng Yang and Zhi Ying, and I felt bad, but I kind of disapprove towards some of their preachings that were saying,
6)
We[the Sec 3s] didn't try to help the Sec 1s, and left it the way it was. Maybe because when we were trying and trying, you didn't see, and the fact that the Sec 1s were obviously not very good at this moment, I think I'm quite right in saying that the Sec 4s didn't help much either? I thought I saw an improvement in the Sec 1s, after we [Sec 2s and Sec 3s] taught them skills, for example, how Yuan Fang managed to sing a lil' bit louder, how Gina finally got her notes right, how Kai Song was able to sing quite well and dared to speak out. Before the handover, who even knew Kai Song had a very inquisitive (and good) thinking, and was actually sincerely curious about knowing how things worked? I don't think it was very correct in saying that we don't bother anymore, because I believe we helped more than the Sec 4s did. No offense, but I just thought that this wasn't a very good area to scold about. I'm not blaming the Sec 4s, but I think you shouldn't say that we did not do anything, because we did and will continue to do. Plus I think this isn't a very critical/harsh comment, so yeah it's basically my thoughts.
I would give myself full marks if this was an SS SBQ *grins.
7)
You angered some people you really shouldn't have. The some people, you should know very well who was it, I don't disagree if you really couldn't stand it and wanted to point out their behaviour or anything, but probably not put it that way. Doing that only makes them feel pissed and I don't think this way they can learn anything at all. Plus it's a special someone, and you should think about what she would do when she gets really angry. Have you ever thought that after this she would just give up totally, and clean her hands off the committee and her responsibilities? Have you ever thought that this can only make her pissed, and when that happens, nothing you say would make her listen? I thought you should know quite well what kind of person she is. She isn't what I call the most clear-headed person, when it comes to anger managing. Then again, who is? And it only needs a little stubbornness to get anger overcome a person, her morals and her values. So, such way of telling these people what's wrong, I thought, won't be effective, and is absolutely NOT the way.
8) My father comes up to me and rambles on about everything that is going bad. I hate it like crazy. The so many times I turned my back to face him, doesn't that tell him that I don't want to hear? Please, this is one reason why you married a wife you know.
I find myself very very logical and very clear, but I repeat, these are not critical comments, I am not pissed, just a little disapproved, and apart from these comments I think I agree with all that you have just scolded us for, for I think we kind of deserved it too. But, really, are we really that bad? Probably our cooperation isn't working out too well, but what about the other things we've done? Paiseh, but your scoldings get more and more fierce every single time. But that shouldn't be the case, because we couldn't have gone bad to worse and worse to worst as time goes by, could we?
